HAUL

hi kiki fans (:

I’m sorry i didn’t write yesterday D: but, I was just so busy so I had no time. 

Well today was so much fun! I went on a Forever 21 haul and went on all of the great bargains the store had to offer. I bought a chiffon peach and white top with a ribbon on the left side. It made it bold. I got this violet blue winter coat for 10.99 regular 25(?) somewhere around that price. I got this cute medium sleeved cardigan that has buttons on each side. Navy blue, red, white flowers. Silver chrome metal button on the sleeves and a sort of short lengthed blazor thingy

SORRY bye

be wonderful.

kiki

Piano lessons

Today was like THEE most boring & slowest Saturday I have ever come across. Screw that. Well here’s what i did.

-schedule-

woke up with a ribbon in my hair and my hair was acting really weird. It was still curled. I could of sworn I came out of the shower fresh last night. My room is clean as usual. I walk to the kitchen and then eat eggs sunny side up, with hot cocoa, and milk, bacon . So that was a yay. Then I stall a bit and I clean my room because i messed it up. I practice on my yamaha piano. Playing this trio song is Gollywoggs CakeWalk by Debussy. Then I got dressed and go to Marukai. OOH and I bought Shiseido’s Water in the Lip cherry blossom lip gloss for like 5 dollars plus tax. I was also going to buy Shiseido’s Tsubaki Shampoo and Conditioner for like 13 dollars each. But I was like wtheck, I’ll buy it next time. WORST.DECISION.EVER. ): My hair is so fucked up right now. It’s like kind of ruff, but, I don’t even color it. It’s just damaged. Whatever I should’ve bought the damaged series. Then after that, I went to piano from like 4:30 to like 5:30. To be honest I was relieved and happy to get out of there. I should like upload videos on to my youtube account but, I’m too lazy to upload and film any tutorials. So this is somewhat like an advice shwang website. I guess for the guru’s of tumblr. I’m sorry this is like short or w/e I’ll just end it here

I hope your Saturday is pretty great,

Kiki

Promo Dance

So today was promo dance =) it was FUN. hehe. I got a peach layered dress from forever 21 along with this lacy, pearl and diamond neclace. It’s pretty. I put on makeup and i guess i was trying to impress the crowd. or someone. I really have no clue. hmmm what else. OH and i wore cute peach steve madden flats but they were REALLY painful. I guess that the saying “Beauty is not painless.” or something like that, really makes sense. Anyways, I really teared up when all the couples got to dance to a really great slow love song. Shows how much i love being single. Anyways the mini prom ended at 9 ): wish it was more though. Aiya, I’m really really really tired and practically out of it. My eyes hurt so much . Well I’m going to catch up on a great novel. I’ll be back tomorrow. 

Being Beautiful,

Kiki

It’s been a month

Hey there my fellow bloggers and quote lovers. I am so sorry that I haven’t been on since like… a month? T-T that’s a long time, very long. It’s not that I didn’t want to write but, I just couldn’t. I mean, the guy i liked. FUCKING loved read everything and i just couldn’t blog at least not yet. I don’t know. I don’t know anymore. I mean i wrote everything, anything, that came to my heart, my mind but, I guess it’s not so capable and brilliant anymore. It’s like an ocean without the sand, the water with salt, sea salt. I mean, I just couldn’t. Writing was my LIFE. my fucking life. I think that I should’ve been more careful about hiding my feelings, putting my heart on my sleeve. I mean but, we only live once so who gives a fuck. I mean now, I’ll just let everything go like a piece of yarn floating in the distance, if that makes any sense. Whatever. I’m human. I will only live once so why think about anything more than once or twice.

I’m a mess.

Sorry I’ve been busy, busy taking care of personal things that I had to deal with immediately. Well, it’s still spring break for me at least, and it’s been a struggle. This by far has been the most saddest, crappiest break I have ever had. I cried alot, and was downright depressed for the whole time (?) My heart broke quite a bit. Actually, the whole time. It was just horrible. It got to a point where whenever I heard a sad song, I would break down and cry. For what? For you. You like someone. I knew you did but, somehow I just had to like you. It gave me no benefits whatsoever. It gave me a hard time. You refused going to cue with me because you said you “hesitated” going with her. You didn’t though. That was a lie. You told me you would never kiss anyone, not even your soul mate until, a suitable age. That was a lie too. You kissed her on the cheek. Which made me feel even worse. It’s similar to a first kiss. A first kiss is supposed to be the most memorable thing in your love life. The part of your turning point where you can say, I had my first kiss and be proud. I guess she feels that way. It feels good. Not when someone who loves you more knew about it. Then it just makes you feel guilty and it’s then it doesn’t feel as special. Well I don’t know. How would I know. I’m just a  blogger here. Okay, I’m sorry if I’m not as happy or as poetic today. I just feel so sad. My heart is torn up. I’ve been a mess since last Friday. Please don’t be mad. I’ve had enough of that lately. I can’t even look at you anymore, I know I can’t. I just won’t. You broke my heart to a point where I don’t want to talk to anyone for the time being. Am I being a little over dramatic over there? Well it’s not being dramatic when you know that you loved that person with all that you had. 

I’m sorry bloggers who read these daily tips and advices. 

Good Morning or night. 

Kiki

“I think every girl looks for her Mr.Darcy.”

By far my favorite quote. Little girls also like to have tea parties in their frilly, puffy sleeved dresses. It’s their childhood joys. Finding their Mr.Darcy & Prince charming is their frosting to their special cake. It’s their night in shining armor. It makes them feel special for once in their life. They want a guy who’ll be by their side who won’t make them feel sad, will buy them pretty things and will give them hugs and their jackets when it gets cold outside. It’s something that they need in life. They need someone who’ll take care of them. They need someone who will love them for who they are & not just their beauty. 

Most importantly, they need a friend a  best friend, a lover, their Mr.Darcy. 

I hope your Mr.Darcy is out there,

Kiki

Me playing Chopin’s Waltz in C# Minor Enjoy music lovers out there

Kiki

Bittersweet

Today, I was sad. I was horrible today, a mess really. I found out what I got on my project and it was useless. I went and walked in the border line of a basketball court. Sat there, and sobbed my heart out. My hard work is truly wasted. Ann and jacqueline tried cheering me up. No matter what it took, it wouldn’t work. ); . Then you came along, and sat next to me and trying to cheer me up. You touched my hair <3. (: You made my day but, more importantly, my friends did. It’s good to know that people care about me (:

Isn’t it queer how you like this one person, and at the same time you think they like you too? You feel special whenever they talk to you because, well because you think they only pay attention to you and no one else. It’s true. They tell you everything on aim, text you almost everyday and they know how to treat you well. They’ll tell you that they love you although what they mean is just friendship. They might also think of you as their little sister. They watch out for you all the time, and they tell those jerks off. They’ll tell you, you look cute when you actually do. They’ll walk with you after school and they;ll laugh when other people tell them that they look like your older brother <3 It’s so cute. I have an older brother and I love him dearly. He’s secretly my lover that I wish that I could be with for the rest of my life <3 

Unfortunately he’s going to a different high school T_T I wish that he hadn’t but he says it’s for his own good. It’s good to know he’s thinking of himself once in a while <3 I won’t say I’m okay for right now, but, I know that I’ll always be his little sister <3 even if we’re far from each other, even if we never meet, or never catch a glimpse of each other I know that I’ll always be his friend. Despite all of our little fights, I’ll always forever, don’t all friends fight sometimes? once in a while. Fighting just means that they love and care about each other because, if they didn’t then that’s not really worthy of their friendship. I know it sounds confusing but it is what it is. 

I’m telling you to fight with the guy you like or your best friend all the time but, if you are going to have an argument you have to argue about something that’s dear, and important to your heart . That’s what I say. 

I wish you guys the best with these tips

Have a lively day,

Kiki 

The Essentials

If you think about it, don’t you love the guy you’re always with? I do. Don’t you want to spend every minute with him to the fullest. Spend every minute with him to prove that you love him before time runs out and you regret everything. You can never regret a friendship or love that you have for someone unless you didn’t do anything to earn that friendship. In order to have earned that friendship or love you would have to know what his favorite color is, where he likes to shop, what he likes to do on the weekends, his favorite kind of weather, his favorite shirt, jackets, pens, etc. Especially what color his hair & eyes are and how tall he is. Why the height? So you can know when’s the right time to get your “first hug<3”  Of course you have to know what he loves to eat. ^^ You have to know his everything as if it was a part of you. It’s like your nature to know these certain things these “essentials”. They’ll come in handy, I promise. 

For me, the guy that i love, loves the color black, he likes to shop at penwish.com (LOL) On the weekends he has tennis lessons, art class, pen spinning class. His favorite kind of weather are rainy days because it brings out his true colors (LOL). His favorite jackets is this black and white striped hoodie & this blue and white plaid one too. His favorite shirts is a bicycle shirt, domo shirt, and a dark blue and black long sleeve shirt. He has several favorite pens. He makes them from hand <3. His eyes are the color of dark brown, his hair is shiny black with bangs in the front and to the side. Asian hair <3 . He is currently 5”10 and is still growing. 

I will get my “first hug” on April 23,2010 <3 

He better he owes me. He owes me a present for my birthday.